Screw plans.

i hate this.

Holy crap.

That just happened.

Be proud of me, very proud.

So many things can turn around in an instant.

And that's what Happened today.

Mom, Jon, and I went to Vulcan.
Then by tacobell after we discovered there is NO chinese place open on a Sunday after 7.


It was the cutest thing ever.
:D
gosh, I love you, Jon Davis.

From the top of the hill, I'll roll down.

Friday afternoon to like..10 minutes ago I was on top of everything. This includes relationships, controlling my eating, being a good friend, a good daughter, and just happiness in general.
9 minutes ago, I tripped up and started falling down the hill. I didn't think the hill was this big.

I'm not a good daughter anymore because I brought my clothes up a little too late.
I'm not a good sister because I just annoy my siblings.
I'm not a good friend because I don't care about them.
I'm not a good girlfriend because I told him I didn't wanna do a certain things and I chose the wrong choice that he gave me to choose.

Now. This is how I see it.
I'm a good daughter because I brought my clothes up.
I'm a good sister because I try to help.
I'm a good friend because I care about them more than I should.
I'm a good girlfriend because I try to understand and I try to stand up for myself and my opinion. I'm a good girlfriend because I want to be the best there is and I want to give him what he wants when apparently I just SUCK all together.



Now. Why can't people understand that I'm trying to be nice and considerate. I'm trying to help out.

When did that become such a bad thing?

2/6/09

So how about yesterday was our one year.

Think about that for a second...
okay.
I was just as shocked as you. I mean one year is like 365 days. That's a very long time. And I'm really happy about it. I'm really happy it was with Jon and no one else. I'm really happy about how things are and how they are going. We can bicker sometimes, but as ridiculous as it sounds I think I'm in love. Whether that show to be true or not, I'm gonna believe it for as long as I can. Simply because I really want it to be true. Which might make me get hurt even worse in the end but who knows, maybe if something were to happen I wouldn't get hurt at all. I don't know. I just know that he does have the choice to go when he pleases. And that blows. It's even hard to think about. So I'm not gonna.

This is what we did.
1. After school he and doug picked me up and we went and picked up his mama.
2. We went to see Pink Panther2.
3. We went to California Pizza Kitchen to eat. nomnomnom.
4. We went back to his house and chilled then he gave me my flowers :D (Pink Daisies.)

It was the best night ever.
I love him.
The end.